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Flora  

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  • Nude Photographer
  • Female/United States
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  • Deviant since Apr 16, 2008, 6:12 AM
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Reasons why i feel all torn up part 2

Journal Entry: Sat May 10, 2008, 8:05 PM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: What Hurts the most (cascada
  • Reading: pc screen
  • Watching: pc screen
  • Playing: keyboard
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: air
Well i guess i can tell you guys my story. My personalitys at times can be happy,sad,deppressed,suicidel, and more.

There is this friend of mine who i have been in love with for almost 4 to 5 years. I care about this friend of my so much, that i sacerficed alot for him. I new him since high school were we first meet, It seemed like he was really into me, but really was not. I though that he cared for me, but i was just used really badly. I have became more depressed and really sad over the years. During my high school graduation, i ended up getting pregnant that night with his child (who i love the most). I found out i was 7 1/2 weeks pregnant the second week of july. i was excited, but i didnt know how he was going to react.

I told him about my test, and we went to the docters for a pointment and ultrasound. Later after the appoint ment i went home and got on msn, we started to talk, and all he talked about was wanting me to get an abortion done. I was really torn up, i told him off and stuff, then he kept dragging me on about adoption and so. this guys was not around much to help me with my pregnancy, but only took me to my appointments (because he said he should have the right to go). My mind was really messed up. I had gotten some crap from the family.
In febuary i had givin birth to my little girl, and i felt really upset at my self that i let him at the birth sesion. know his family has been happy that she came know, and know that she's the greatest thing ever.

I still love my friend, but things have been going on lately, and hes been dating some other girl who is over weight, plus hes been know to being really shallow about dating fat chicks, so know im just trying to lose as much weight as possible and look alot better, but it feels like im going over board with loosing weight, stopped eating alot, and developed a eating disorder. I hope you guys are not worried. after i found out that he was dating this girl, i started to do nude art to help myself. but i have been thinking, maybe im only doing the nude art to get attention or something, but oh well

Later
Flora

Devious Information

  • Current Age: in my 20s
  • Current Residence: usa
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: medium.large
  • Interests: collecting, video games, Pokemon, Cooking
  • Favourite movie: Most of the Pokemon Movies
  • Favourite band or musician: mozaert and any other old timers, drake bell, cascada
  • Favourite genre of music: classic,Dance, pop
  • Favourite artist: davinch, angelo, donatelo, and other old artist
  • Favourite poet or writer: Shakespear is good, charles dickens tale of two citys
  • Favourite style or digital art: photoshop work
  • Operating System: Gateway with xp running
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Shell of choice: dont know
  • Wallpaper of choice: floral print, victorian style
  • Skin of choice: my naked self
  • Favourite game: Pokemon Games
  • Favourite gaming platform: GBA DS Gamecube
  • Favourite cartoon character: Drew, May, Roselia, Lugia
  • Personal Quote: torn and beaten up
  • Tools of the Trade: Camara, photoshop 7, Sapia color

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~marloma:iconmarloma: 5 days 3 hours ago
How are you today, Flora? I hope you are feeling a bit better about things.It isnt easy for you with a baby, & your emotional upset over a boy( he isnt a man at all).Please try to not worry about what the boy is doing.please try to think of your health, so you can look after your baby,she needs you now.She loves you, not some boy who just wanted sex.Can you talk to anyone there near you? maybe even a counsellor at the school.I hope you are feeling better Flora.I wish there was something more I could do to help you.
look after yourself, bye for now.I am sending you love,anne.

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I've got you like a habit,I'll never get enough, there aint no cure for love.
Leonard Cohen
~captainneal:iconcaptainneal: 6 days 1 hour ago
I read your biographical story of 5/10/08. You're so young, why did you let some kid who didn't care so much about you knock you up? It's not like there aren't fairly reliable ways to avoid unplanned pregnancy. Did the educational system fail to tell you about them?
I wrote to you previously about my age and my wife, and you wrote back as I understood it that marriage is short lived and not much effective in the modern age. I hope not. Marriage is a civil contract that has as its basic purpose to allow people to live more pleasant lives, to establish stability in which to raise children and support each other as we age. My wife and I have been best friends since we were 13 years old. We have been married for 27 years
Going forward(we all make mistakes)you need to plan some way to further your education. You and your daughter are your big causes, but it seems to me that you won't be able to do so much to help your daughter until you've done some things to help yourself. I realize none of this stuff is ever easy. It doesn't matter whether you're trying to get through professional or graduate school, or trying to get though a post high school vocational program after taking a couple of years off to have a baby.
Whatever your plan is, embarassing or tempting back the kid who impregnated you and has moved on is not likely to be a successful plan for your life(although as a lawyer could suggest some more effective ways to command his attention). Do you not have a dad you can talk with these kind of things about? A mom?
Don't be sad. Figure out where you are, and what
your plan is from there. Be realistic. If you want to e-mail
me about any of this you would be welcome Flora.
~marloma:iconmarloma: May 9, 2008, 11:05:35 PM
Hi again, I see you are in your twenties.It must be awful for you to feel so bad.I hope you have someone close to you who loves you.Can you talk to someone near you, tell them how you feel? I am sorry to hear you are starving yourself.You must feel so bad to do that.I wish I was there, to give you a hug, & to tell you, hey,I care what happens to you.Please care for yourself.Please tell someone how you feel.I hope you can gosomewhere & you will feel better,& there is someone there you can talk to.You have done a brave thing, by telling us about how bad you feel.It must have been very difficult to come out & say what you did.I hope you can talk to someone, & they can help you.I wish I could do more.If you want to send me a note, just tell me anything you want.Or nothing.If it helps, I will listen.Sending you love,anne.

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I've got you like a habit,I'll never get enough, there aint no cure for love.
Leonard Cohen
~poeticsofdesign:iconpoeticsofdesign: May 9, 2008, 5:27:52 AM Mood: Love
Hi. Enjoyed your works. You have a lovely naturalness about you, and a certain vibe that you personify which makes each one a success. Well done! :) Hope you are well also. ~ Mark. xoxo
~marloma:iconmarloma: May 9, 2008, 12:07:22 AM
thank you for the fave.
cheers,anne

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...love's the only engine for survival..
leonard cohen
~marloma:iconmarloma: May 8, 2008, 4:08:38 PM
hi, thank you for adding me to your friend's list.When I use your stock photographs, of course I will link & credit you.
Cheers,anne

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...love's the only engine for survival..
leonard cohen
~marloma:iconmarloma: May 7, 2008, 9:56:55 PM
Hello Flora, I LOVE your gallery! you are GORGEOUS!! Please can I draw & paint you?
cheers,anne

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...love's the only engine for survival..
leonard cohen
~magickallykarp:iconmagickallykarp: May 7, 2008, 4:53:52 PM
:iconmagickallykarp::iconfaveplz:

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~RubensAnew:iconRubensAnew: May 6, 2008, 8:39:08 AM
You are welcome. Keep it up, I couldn't do what you do.
~Nakedandsad:iconNakedandsad: May 2, 2008, 8:59:42 PM
thanks

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*6design9:icon6design9: May 2, 2008, 2:13:54 PM
just beautiful...! your work...honesty
~dmcconne:icondmcconne: May 1, 2008, 12:31:48 AM
you can hide that. i just didn't imagine that comment coming from a mom!
~dmcconne:icondmcconne: May 1, 2008, 12:16:43 AM Mood: Joy
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you're a deviant mommy
~Nakedandsad:iconNakedandsad: Apr 30, 2008, 6:19:02 PM
thanks you for the nice comment

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~Dr-Doolittle:iconDr-Doolittle: Apr 30, 2008, 4:45:40 PM
You are a testament to the beauty of real women....
~shuulover:iconshuulover: Apr 30, 2008, 1:50:05 AM
hey thanks for the fave! Sry I can't make any sequels.:(
~captainneal:iconcaptainneal: Apr 29, 2008, 5:14:59 PM
Nothing personal, but you're obviously a bright young woman and can learn to spell. If a person is going to publish pictures, they are obligated to make them as well done as they, and I like your pictures. If publishing words, they also need to be as well crafted as possible.
~Nakedandsad:iconNakedandsad: Apr 28, 2008, 8:09:14 PM
sorry if i dont spell really good.

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*Respect-Us:iconRespect-Us: Apr 28, 2008, 2:49:33 AM
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Keep fighting for respect and we hope to see more from you soon :salute:

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~Nakedandsad:iconNakedandsad: Apr 26, 2008, 10:11:00 PM
thank you

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